...and what goes up must come DOWN!??!?!?!

that's absolutely B.S., but (i think) that's what's been happening to me lately. ***guhdemmit.***

after all my wishy-wishy-rose-colored-spectacle heyday the past few weeks, i've finally hit the all-time LOW... my accounting exam sucked (nearly failed)! yeah, i know it's silly of me to wallow about this, but uh... i'm frustrated i can get *this* stoopid. it heckles me that i should know what the heck i'm studying about, but say, i had too much confidence and now i'm shot down by the missiles.. whatever... i really want to make up for this.

(into Yoda-like trance):
tomorrow, august comes. near, the prelims are. switch back to NERD mode, i am.

forgive me dahlings.

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FINALLY! A NEW LAYOUT!

now i can sleep soundly.

'schizoesque in blue!' is the concept of the present thingy you're looking at. for the past few days i've been shopping for a new template, but i've been too reluctant to put all my etc info on disarray and start all over again! so i just did the way i had with the previous refurbishing... incorporate all the good things i've seen and place it here! :) to go with the RETRO flow i made sure my bg's psychedelic (Hah!) and the pic's none too obscure. proper credit goes to mamafai, to whom i've 'snatched' the graphics...

hope you'll love this as much as i do.

(p.s. yes! my yellow cab pizza craving's satisfied! :D)

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"The Look Of Love"
Diana Krall

The look of love is in your eyes
A look your smile can't disguise
The look of love is saying so much more
Than just words could ever say
And what my heart has heard
Well it takes my breath away

I can hardly wait to hold you
Feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you
Now that I have found you

You've got the
Look of love, it's on your face
A look that time can't erase
Be mine tonight
Let this be just the start of
So many nights like this
Let's take a lover's vow,
And then seal it with a kiss

I can hardly wait to hold you
Feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you,
Now that I have found you
Don't ever go
Don't ever go...

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how i LOVE this song... (and not because of some silly pathetic starstricken emotion... duh, technically am not! ;p) i loved it since i heard some cellular phone plug on tv featuring the old version (very jazzy.. was it for ericsson or motorola?) it was terrific... then featured on movies like "catch me if you can" (the scene with jennifer garner?) and "gossip" (which i sneak-peeked yesternight). wish to DL one...

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oh momma, please don't tell me he's... ...you-know-what!

introducing our hottie for the season jon jonsson (funny name, ha ha). i *accidentally* discovered him two sundays ago while watching mtv's 50 most stylish videos w/ sarah meier & him as hosts. the show's two-part, for two hours each, so i had the marvelous chance of awaiting him again yesterday. (so if you didn't catch him, shame on ye! ;p) what initially *attracted* me to this guy (who i fondly call SEXY!) is yeah, his "stylish" appeal and ultra-suave voice... kinda drawlish but "ooh so sexy!" kind. (i am THIS nasty!) i love the opening sequence where he's sitting on a chair with only his underpants on and he looks quite conscious of himself... oh shy guy! that alone got me smiling (and laughing out loud!) ... until MOM told me he's GAY-ISH! aaarrgh! don't you dare spoil my fantasies! he's the ideal guy! and so i checked the internet to dig facts from the grave about jon, and the VERDICT???

some major facts about j.j. :

he's of icelandic-thai descent

around 22-23 years old

speaks fluent english (only... he forgot icelandic)

won "manhunt: america's most gorgeous male model" on bravo tv..

loves MATH and PHYSICS

very single but NOT GAY!!!

some interesting tidbits from j.j. (courtesy of his blog:)

"If I woke up one day as a woman, after gazing at myself in the mirror naked for a while, I would probably then go to the hospital and ask a doctor what the hell happened. I would then probably become a lesbian."

"I have never thought of what I would rather have happen when regarding a relationship falling apart. Being too alike is dangerous because it may be a sign that you don't love yourself, but being too different may mean that you are not open to other things. I don't really know, every relationship that has fallen apart for me has happened because they stopped feeling good. There are usually no real reasons for it except maybe a bad vibe or something."

"I don't know when I'll get married, and if I do it'll probably be more of a simple, "Yeah, that'd be pretty cool to spend the rest of our lives together" kind of ceremony rather than an elaborate church wedding filled with traditional and structures words and motions. Whatever to that!"

"Happiness to me is having a day without regrets, plenty of sunshine, and really good waves. I'm a pretty simple guy, but very dependent on nature. It's also the name of this dog that my buddy owns."

"I don't understand what is so impractical about aeronautical engineering, and I actually did not study this in college. I think physics is the most practical study I can think of. It explains how and why things work and happen, rather than finding silly ways to make money. If that is practicality, then I don't want to be practical. Most jobs on this planet are so boring and repetitive, that's why I don't want a job on this planet. What's left? Becoming an astronaut. This is a fading dream though, but regardless it is the ultimate job."

**WHY NO PIC? ..well, there's no decent one of him... maybe next time!***

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CHRONICLES OF A GROWLING STOMACH (#2)
Subtitled: Seeing Life Through Rose-Colored Spectacles

Quiz Time!!! What am I feeling lately? Select all that apply:

A. On a natural high

B. Strangely fine

C. Completely pleased

D. Head-in-the-clouds type

E. Crappily sexy

F. All of the above


...and if you answered ALL OF THE ABOVE, then you win a FREE KISS from moi through the net!!! *wet smackeroo* .. thanks for joining! :)

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1) positive thinking

you might be wondering why what the heck i did i munch on that i am in such a "zippity zappity fine n' dandy" mood for almost two weeks???... hey, i'm wondering myself too! so far life has been going really swell and i think everything's working in tune... i no longer dread much or scamper away the worries of college life as a neophyte, its many obstacles & whatsoever... i think (again) that i can tolerate all these, for the moment everything's still a-ok... no really crappy quizzes yet. i like the way i'm driving myself... that i listen and take notes in discussions (though sometimes my mind wanders somewhere else... must be because of hunger!) and that i also *try* to participate. (me pleased, prof pleased, end of story!) i have never seen myself this diligent for months. and not that i'm bragging, i got the top score in our philosophy exam! (it was surprising to think that 91 was already the highest... i actually thought my smarter classmates would've gotten the bacon) ... that really got me thinking that i'm not *exactly* out of the league with all the valedictorians / salutatorians / honor students in my class. i initially thought when i knew -- this class is actually a brainy one! -- that it was a pretty stiff competition, considering i'm a very "average a.k.a. bit of a slacker" stude in my sj years... and the fact that this freshmen batch of 1,477 would've slugged each other to vie for the -only- 500 slots for the accountancy major at the end of second year! my friends in the other sections told me they felt the same... but well, for the ambitiously sane side of me, i'm taking this as a challenge! it's actually great that many of us are taking this positively and strive hard for grades (and higher learning, of course) now that we're in college (as read from my batchmates' posts in the sj seniors ygroup) ...

and speaking of positive thinking, i would love to spread my enthusiasm over my almost-preferred subjects to those of my least apt: Math. i hate it when i automatically switch to the "i can't handle this!" mode (when we talk about equations and stuff) and bomb it off, then the regret part: "damn! i'm too careless!" i do think algebra is easy (waaay easier than geometry or even trigonometry)... save for the personal dogma brainwash that Math Is My Biggest Waterloo Since Grade One. i have classmates (good friends of mine) that has math as their favorite subject BECAUSE THEY SIMPLY LIKE IT. to them it doesn't matter whether the lesson is hard or they don't exactly understand, it's their enthusiasm over these numbers and expressions that gets the good of them... that's why they excel! as i heard these sentiments, i couldn't help but be amazed that the only solution (oft-said by my dad) for getting over a
pretty difficult subject is to have a pleasant, competitive mindset about it: I CAN DO THIS! Yes I CAN! :)

2) independent gal

i like to think that i'm now a more matured person (oh yeah, another news item: i got my entrance exam results and found out i have a 119 IQ! that's oh-so-f*ing fantastic! last time i knew, it was just 109... wisdom, wisdom! *LOL*) ... that i go to school by myself (now recently -but not often- taking buses), being *more* sociable, able to balance my studies & slack, become more perceptive & introspective of many things, and really take care of my arse... i amazed myself when i summoned to go to the MALL by my lonesome -- twice this week! i pushed aside all the worries and pessimism and comfortably strolled around, purchased stuff, let's not forget the eating, and had fun window shopping! now you can say i enjoy my "lonerhood" even outdoors... i actually like it that i'm not bound to anything because i'm the master of my ship! hooray, actual independence! :D

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"Every day above ground is a good one." -- from Six Feet Under

i've been thankful lately for the many good things that i've come across with... think i wanna have to list them down. call this my "thanksgiving blost". so muchos grazies (at the moment) for:

having a comfortable, well-placed schedule (even if i have to wake up @ 7!)

coming to school early *enough* to do anything: review/lounge/internet!

my stomach getting used to the no-lunch period already

making good acquaintances/buddies of my blockmates

having mostly interesting subjects (and yes, the people who teach 'em)

having a fun class, 'coz at least we're pretty comfortable with each other now

..and more than having a fun class, an intelligent & enthusiastic one at that

that i won't be alone when commuting home... :D

still keeping in touch with my closest friends & former batchmates

AND, the feeling of joy & excitement facing a new challenging day!

there. 10 reasons. and even if our classroom's AIR CONDITIONING is not yet working (and my PE absolutely s.u.c.k.s), nothing's going to dampen my spirits because i LOVE my LiFE!!! :-)

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ISN'T HE A CUTIE??? RIGHT? RIGHT!!!!

though i haven't watched "the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy" (H2G2)... and i don't know anything about it (nope, i'm no sci-fi lass), i was surprised when i read that this particular character marvin the paranoid android (which i find pint-sizedly endearing) is voiced by no other than alan rickman! ha! he's one of my favorite actors (haha... snape/harry from "l.a."/hans gruber rickmaniac i am!) there is something in his voice that's just sooo.... (sexy?) NOW I WANT TO WATCH THIS!

(for the record, i've boycotted "war of the worlds" because i have to attend to more pressing matters... NERD SYNDROME!!!)

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(NOTE: this is actually a later post, but i want this week's post to begin with Marvin. whahaha..)

i cannot say for how many times in the past few years that i absolutely like the song Pure Imagination. i didn't know who sang it (the version i really like sounds like Cake's), but i know the song was very old... a clip with gene wilder singing as willy wonka does it. (mom bursts out laughing when i asked about the song). but anyway, i searched for the lyrics (musical mood eh?) and was pleasantly surprised that Maroon 5 (one of my fave bands) is doing a cover for the movie "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" (where 'pure imagination' all started). i swear you'll get snazzily nostalgic.. ;)

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Pure Imagination
Maroon 5

Come with me, and you'll be
In a world of pure imagination
Take a look and you'll see
Into your imagination

We'll begin, with a spin
Traveling in a world of my creation
What we'll see will defy explanation

And if you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Want to change the world?
There's nothing to it

There is no life I know
To compare with pure imagination
Living there, you'll be free
If you truly wish to be

And if you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Want to change the world?
There's nothing to it

There is no life I know
To compare with pure imagination
Living there, you'll be free
If you truly wish to be

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no, i'm not in love (or AM I?!)... but lately i'm feeling pretty 'hopeless romantic' (you know, the kind who drools over the smallest gestures and saps about corny stuff... yeah.) and these 2 songs definitely get me in that mood.

1) the 'obsessive/self-indulgent' therapy song

Act Naturally
Semisonic

Our little secret just might be the kind of thing that you can't hide
It's growing like a tangled vine & rising like a river in the tide
And everybody knew when you walked into the room
I was just a fool for you, nothing I could do
Everybody sees you taking control of me
Well I'm not begging for release
I'm just begging darling please, please

Act naturally
Don't let our troubles show
Don't let anybody know
Till we get it figured out
Don't give them anything that they could doubt

Our little problem doesn't seem to be about to go away
As far as I can tell it's gonna keep on showing more with every day
And everybody look, yeah, that was all it took
I can't help believing they can read me like a book
So hide your feelings tight till we figure how to make it right
I don't know what I should but I
Would do it if I could

Act naturally
Just be beautiful
Just be casual
I'll be me before the fall
You be you before this all came down

Don't let our troubles show
Don't let anybody know
Till we get it figured out
Don't give them anything that they could doubt

Just be beautiful
Just be casual
I'll be me before the fall
You be you before this all came down

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2) the 'giddy schoolgirl in love' song

Fall To Pieces
Avril Lavigne

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you...

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and if you're asking how the friday orientation (however laaate it was), it went FINE. with sore feet and everything. the plus thing: the GOODIE BAG! haha :)

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