note to self: i will NEVER BE LATE for math class ever again because of any lamebrained reason. the after-effects leave too much regret in my heart. i mean, i never was physically absent and i'm marked as one! damn.

our english report is finally over... at last, one down! (at least my "performance" was loads better than my 1st sem bio) ... still have one theology report to go (with yours truly as reluctant leader)... and it's officially the start of Term Paper Season! have to make 'em for three subjects... leaves me in much agony because the internet dial-up i was reserving for "home research time" for these 2 months cracked on me! (i hope i will shell out no further -- spent only 8 hours out of 30!) so i have to (pay for all my sins and) research at the library which isn't such a bad idea, considering the place was paid for too.

about the usual volley buzz (i know you're getting tired of it -- i'll make this short), i still suck... we had our first game wednesday. i became the last-minute tally scorer (with unfocused dumminess) for the first two games, then our team played. the only thing i did was mostly stand there and "tried" to hit the ball (obviously nothing happened)... we almost won... but the last unfortunate shot landed on me and all i could do was make an Attempt (v-ball term for "trying to hit the ball but wasn't able to pass it over the opponent), so it amounted to nothing. gah... i got an egg for a score! the good thing is we only have 3 meetings left, aren't having any this week! :)

i'm so lazy lately. i don't think i could make the dean's list with my grades, and honestly i don't possess the drive and energy anymore that i had the first few months of college. i so want to be a good student, but there's some things hindering me... well maybe not. it's just me. i can do it -- i'm just not trying! =|

i'll be out for five sundays because of the QE review. so help me God.

**do you know - my computer pulled a ninny on me! i thought it was going to suffer another breakdown last saturday (the "CPU beep" thing that got me all worried June & October 2005 and the start of the year!)... i believe it was just a startup problem and not a holy guacamole fuse blowup. i do hope it's that. so me being the ningas cogon expert, i'll have to take some precaution these days about adding programs and downloading stuff, plus my usage. I CAN'T AFFORD LOSING THIS ANYMORE! it's the time i need computers most! :|

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aren't they the CUTEST?!?!!?

they're among the new breed of "designer dogs" called Labradoodles! a cross-breed of the labrador and the poodle, at first i thought they're stuffed toys at first glance, but they're actually real! haha... :0) i honestly am not fond of dogs (animals w/ fur or scales in general), but i can't help but like such beautiful creatures as this when i see them. i have mazie & george (the dog's names) as my current desktop wallpaper... sooo adorable! woof! =D

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first up, let me post the lyrics of my current favorite tune:

High - James Blunt

Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me.
There is nothing else in the world
I'd rather wake up and see with you.
Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again.
Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.
But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn - melt with the stars again.
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end of time?
Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,
Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

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i like james blunt's music for the moment -- "you're beautiful", "goodbye my lover" and "high". don't know why. it's like his songs are of yearning, aching for love. makes me a bit mellow. hmm... do i feel that because i'm one absolutely lame hopeless romantic? lovelorn? loveless? *hacks* well, that's for me to wonder and you to discern. ;p

i so adore the Blueberry Cream Cake mom brought home this week... it's one of the best non-chocolate cakes i've tasted! it's moderately sweet, the cream is heavenly, and it made me think how the strawberry variant tasted... since i love strawberry desserts! maybe i'll have my fingers on that next time =)

P.S. all you need is love: i had a Belgian for a date yesterday... ice cream, that is! :|
and i got a fresh bloody wound too! gashed my left leg while hoisting myself in the PUJ... leaving a small unslightly scratch... frantic stupidity reigns again! 8|

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when you feel like the world's up against you, just remember you've got 26 friends to back you up... the Choose-Your-Mood Alphabet Gang! finally, the words to complete the phrase "I feel _______." ....


A - absurd ~|~ B - bedraggled ~|~ C - crappy ~|~ D - despondent
E - enervated ~|~ F - frazzled ~|~ G - goofed ~|~ H - harassed
I - ineffable ~|~ J - junky ~|~ K - kvetched ~|~ L - lackadaisical
M - morose ~|~ N - neurotic ~|~ O - obscure ~|~ P - pallid ~|~ Q - qualmy
R - rotten ~|~ S - shriveled ~|~ T - tremulous ~|~ U - underrated
V - vile ~|~ W - woebegone ~|~ X - x'ed-up ~|~ Y - yoyo-ish ~|~ Z - zonked


*well, i'm not promoting or encouraging sadness, i'm just being creative about it. though yeah, i'm having the blues these days.

arrgh! it didn't rain last wednesday so our first practical exam in volleyball pushed through... it was really unnerving since i was wishing for a postponement again but nada. (it did drizzle a bit for only 10 f'n seconds!) the test was divided into "individual volley" 15 counts (bouncing the damn ball with your arms and wrists) and "feed the ball volley" 15 counts (by 2's: partner throws ball at you, you bounce it back to her w/ your wrists). both will be ONLY TAKEN ONCE. so when once it falls hard to the ground, you're done! i prepared myself for individual volley sunday and tuesday, since i was thinking i could do it - because if i can't do this damn thing well, what about the rest? i was pretty good in my practices (exceeding the required 15's) but then when my turn was getting nearer, i broke into a cold sweat, clammy hands and racing heartbeats. how i hate showcasing my "so-called expertise" to everyone (yeah, everyone's watchin' you!) ... so i ended fucking up and blooping everything. i couldn't even bounce the ball well, amounting to only 6 counts, getting a failed 4.0 score. (average to pass is 8 counts!) it was soooo not good. *hits myself for being such a wartass* ... i then thought i couldn't make the "feed the ball volley" better because i never really did practice for it until the day itself with my partner. but thank heavens i did fine in that exam (by a mysterious force, haha), a couple of glitches and a 1.25 score, totalling the two to a 2.5. i guess it's one of the lowest in the class. (i knew i could've done better, but oh well..) everyone else (especially the guys) were really superb, hitting the 1's like it was, um, peanuts. after five more grueling meetings (next week -- first real volley game! aaaah!), it's time to think of the next PE to enlist myself in. i still hate balls. is there an "advanced fitness" somewhere? phys ed should be abolished! ;|

i hate my grades this semester. i know i'm the one to blame, but it's really just depressing. :'-(

huge, overdue grievance: i'm a little pissed with how the college administrators are trying to make everything look so good and decent yet they can't solve the lousy air conditioning in my classroom since the first day of classes. the room's SO HUMID (imagine, the air outside the classroom is cooler!), and the 2 aircon units which are supposed to be functional are dripping already! (i'm near one, ya know!) we've been suffering from this b.s. for almost the whole schoolyear! we're paying for quality education, and this is what we get?! $%&@#!

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the stupid internet dial-up conned me! :(((

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like it?
like it?????
good.

this is my newest skin (which i cozily call LilacLounge), after four months or so of the AppleGreen lovefest. (psst.. i still adore the hue, but i have Short Attention Span on stuff like this..)

seems that "designing" templates is my latest hobby... it's a pretty good way to show your personal style (ya know, be "one of a kind", hahaha)... i came to conceptualize this purplish project since the 2nd week of january, at that time i wasn't keen on blogging yet and was wondering if i'd change my blog skin. at first i was thinking of adapting a reddish scheme (to get things bloody wild), but then i saw the picture above of the cool techie girl at GettyImages and fell in love with it, so i decided to make a skin based on the whole thing, using one of my actual favorite colors, violet. scoop the lovely pictures, crop and photoshop, change the font colors, refurbish bluff stuff. so there. enjoy (comment, spat, whatever). i'll laze around this Lounge as long as possible. :)

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something to catch in the tube soon:
the seasonal award shows -- the Grammys (Feb 8), and the Oscars (Mar 5)
and The Amazing Race Season 9 on Feb 28! i'm excited for everything.

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it's raining men, hallelujah!
i've had two consecutive volleyball PE classes snipped out because of the rain! last week (there was a "low pressure area" going on, rained whole afternoon) and this wednesday (at 3pm, the sky suddenly poured its weight down) so all we had were one-hour jibjabbing around... rain's one of the 'finer' things in volleyball (in my case) since it's an outdoor sport... if i were still in fitness (done indoors) i'd feel sulky. six meetings left! though i have to prepare next week for the dreaded 1st practical exam (still feeling a little unconfident)... :|

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