i made a resolution at the start of this week to clean up my act once and for all. i'm taking a hiatus from all blogging and net-related duties (apparently this hasn't clearly worked -- it's a holiday today, give me a break! -- but i digress), and minimizing my 'leisure' activities (TV, iPod, stuff) for the next three weeks. i'm even putting off that ubiquitous Deathly Hallows for an excruciating while just so i can focus on my academics.


which leads to: why the buck do we have to study so damn hard, when our job doesn't require that much? i can envision myself crouching in an office cubicle and banging on spreadsheets, that's all. no back-breaking memorization of clauses and articles, no algebraic equations to squish my mind, no power reading of accounting technicalities to save my neck, no computer programming to dementor-ize me. oh well. the eternal scholar.


third year is cracking me up amazingly at an early point. i've never felt *hopeless* in the span of my whole college life. time and again, i find myself asking, "WHAT IS MY PURPOSE?"


what is it that i really want? is it to prove to myself i can do this? that i can be a CPA and rule the world? or am i just deluded? whatever the case, i'm going to stick it out. there's no other way.


if at the end of this month things finally work out, then i'll be proud of myself. wait and see.


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final word about the Accountancy Journal: my friend told me four days back that *apparently* i scored highest in the qualifying exams. but still, i've made up my mind and that's that... my bad for not 'materializing' at the interview (which happened 2 weeks ago). i'm sad to let them down. i know my limitations. :( i just feel gratified that i've proven to myself i still have some journalist cred. the drama.


shameless plug: please be a dear and read my new essay, Dreamchasing. i also have a couple of contest entries up my sleeve, although i haven't completed them as of late. i need inspiration, quick!

Libellés : college, writing

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