(i'm late in my post, they're probably singing now, but who cares?!?)

catching up late thursday night last week, i knew one inevitable thing would happen on American Idol results ep among taylor, elliot, and katharine. the final 2 were to be named while one of them gets the boot.

when ryan was talking about "how close the voting percentages were", i was anxious but at the same time accepting of the verdict. i *somehow* knew it...

ELLIOT YAMIN scored lowest for the week. sorry, dear. i'd like to think you did well with the three songs you dished out, but i guess with the weariness of your trip back home, maybe you really just worn out -- and maybe you knew what was to come too. i think you've accepted the decision -- you weren't shocked, unlike chris. it was a tough road to travel alongside "mr. showman" and "ms. prettykins", and you were undeniably the "underdog". but you made it so far to show everyone that you've got talent and you've got what it takes. some may bash you for not being good-looking, for not having 'personality' or that streak of confidence, but in a way you developed these attributes along the way -- positively, while not losing what's in your heart and soul. damn, american idol's a popularity contest anyway. YOU CAN DO BETTER. a part of me thinks this was a better send-off than what will be in the finale, when the eventual winner gets crowned and the runner-up might've felt a little shame in front of millions. chill, get into a good record deal, and promise me you'll be doing what you've started that made us yaminions proud. :)

(now that i'm done soliloquizing in elliot's aura...)

when i heard his name called for the exit, emotions simply sprung up. i was so sad he wouldn't be able to perform in the final 2, i was glad he can be relieved of a more horrible exit for next week, i was pissed at kat for silently rejoicing, i was angry at the the powers that be for making elliot such a fluff compared to the other two the night before, and so forth. i was already crying when elliot's AI journey clip rolled on, with the acoustic "bad day" playing (i never appreciated the song... only this once), when he sang "a song for you" in his audition so well, when he was "the king of richmond", when he was saying he's so proud of his mom, and how blessed he is... i sniffed so badly. never have i been so emotional in any AI send-off -- i mean, i favored elliot for only three weeks, and there i am wailing like he's my boyfriend. (ha ha) but that's how he made me feel.

d'ya know why I KNEW this would eventually happen? I DREAMED ABOUT IT!!!

(true story -- not making it up) it was two sundays ago, three days before the top 3 performance. back at the time i was heavily rooting for elliot since his "elvis" performance. in my dream, there was a giant white outdoor stage, cameras and crowd and everything. in my REM mind i was scanning for elliot's whereabouts, when taylor strutted on the stage, performing. where IS he??? like an aerial view cam i searched far and wide, and then i saw katharine in a dress, singing like there's no tomorrow. where is elliot?? the crowds were wild. then poof.

only in my waking state did i realize what my dream meant. it was like a preempted "finale". sad as it was, i'll be wishing elliot (or ephraim?) luck in his career. i wonder if i'm going to watch the final 2 performances tonight (not rooting for anyone), but i'm sure i'm watching the finale tomorrow since elliot and the others are showing up to sing too. :)

P.S. even in the moment of farewells, elliot never failed to show his sweet honesty. "I Believe to My Soul" was glorious... ("my name is elliot yamin"... "and i believe you're trying to make a fool out of me". nice!)

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