last weekend, the annoying voice inside my head kept pestering me for 'judgment day' and i couldn't shake it off! the agony of waiting was wearing my patience (and sanity) thin and was leaving me in bad shape -- i had lousy bouts of pms & attitude daytime, and lucid nightmares that kept me on the edge. soon enough, i just might tear my head off! so when i heard news that the 1st sem grades are available for viewing at the public access computer of the campus (2 days before the dreaded clearance day itself), i went into the dilemma of going there and getting over it, or lingering for a couple of days more and rot in vain. of course i HAD to choose the former. (i might not be able to view my grades in the internet anyway... they're always late!)

so i came to school monday at 9:30 in the morning, and as expected there were long lines over the 3 functioning 'view grades' computers. it's good that i saw my friends (former classmates) in the middle of one, and i *magically* slithered in. (Harharhar!) ... but even so, in my experience viewing the damned numbers, waiting in this type of line is like waiting for godot. everyone wants to view everyone else's grades (copying it for them, whatever) and that's what makes it long and frustrating. suddenly the fear in your head dissolves into sheer exasperation, legs in a state of rigor mortis from standing and forgetting why you're even here in the first place.

... and i'm right. after 3 excruciating hours of fanning from heat and mentos-popping (can't remember how many i've eaten... i'm immune to the Extreme Mint flavor!), it was finally our turn to see the magic numbers. guess what? *drumroll*

... I PASSED!
(oh yeah, my entry's title already gave me away. but still! *happy dance*)

i am so thankful. (thank God! thank my prof! thank my parents for keeping it up with me! thanks to my friends for the support!) my grades are actually good, notwithstanding that. too bad i couldn't make a "1" with humanities (arguably my favorite course this semester -- just 1.25 :o|) but i'm glad that i was able to make the other courses a bit higher from the finals. (i actually got a 2 in statistics! and i thought i died. *yeah!* plus a 1.75 in handball! hahaha ;p) ... although i believe i'm already off the DL's this time around (but who knows!), i'm fine with that. i'm not really asking too much, am i? i just have to study harder next semester. redemption here i come~~

i'm no longer worrying. i had a mini-celebration today with the folks (we all got to finally breathe. i was such a homewrecker the past week!)... let the normal flow of activities resume! :)

tomorrow clearance will be a fluff, but enrolment is another i'd have to deal with.

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